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I Know Many of us at times feel like the bills may not get paid or no food in the house,kids need clothes etc.But there is one thing we are not alone.even though we may feel we are the only ones going through this traggic moment.there are alot of us going through this,together so we have each other to rely on to discuss things with and lean on when times are hard.the economy is so bad these days but I allways remind myself if GOD BRINGS ME TO IT HE WILL BRING ME THROUGH IT.That is something great to give us hope,and remind us that we will survive every struggle that is put before us.

I wish to see a light at the end of the tunnel, even if it is just one lone firefly.

My name is Deborah. It has been a very lonely road for Kyle and Clay and myself, for the past five years. I suffered a severe mental breakdown in 2002-03. Post Traumatic Stress, and other hidden disorders. I was hospitalized, at the time of the event my boys just 12 and 13. I am the beautiful mom that made magic real, the tooth fairy, the valentine fairy, birthdays and all the Holidays. I never did drugs, smoked nor am I an alchoholic. I am a very good person, I have raised these two young men, now 17 and 19,who have prooven to be my real heros. Let me just say we have lived through the impossible the unheard of, the saddness the abondonment, and have rich memories and very deep convictions, related to positive mental health care.

I have been hospitalized on many occasions, during the past few years. Living through still a second trauma, with the most scariest ordeals that are at times inhumain, I have struggled alone.

I am always of sound mind, clear thinking and appear to be calm, happy spirited, kind hearted and extremely compassionate.

I work very hard each day to maintain composure. My children are my heartlights and they are the continueous feed that moves me to awareness in my most desparate moments.

Geez...This was not where I ever, ever, even could comphrend I would be 8 years ago.

I am productive, a workaholic, a mover and a shaker, never idol. Did everything with my kids. On my way to just being content. A nice career as a food service supervisor for a major grocerey store, a nice place to live, a nice car, my kids and I were, great.

Today, my children can't remember when I had my own house, a car, a stable life,safe and warm with my great stuff still in storage a thousand miles away, just to be all together again....living with the boys and my things that remind me of who I am, and what I am about, feels unattainable.

Now as the tears stream steady down my face... in the quiet of the room I am renting, I miss  the Kyle, the Clay... I love them and miss the huge hugs that we share, the laughter, the honesty of our words. The truth of us is only in our hearts and not known to many.

They are in an envirement that I never wanted to see them in, even though it is with thier father, ( he had never participated in their life until 2007) I worry I am scared and God you know how my heart aches for them.

I dont know what I need. That little happy firefly could get me to smile.

I am grateful for all that is here and now, for all the great people who have helped me through the healing process, and continue to.

Bless the child who is of his own. Bless the mothers who compose and smile, Bless the strength of individuals who just walk forward. Bless the hearts for those who are grateful.

I wish for the sick and wounded spirits, that can find with in themselves that joyful spirit....it may be lost, or quiet, to find that one thing that tickles them everyday.

with grace and perfect ways

your daughter, your sister, your friend.

I AM RAISING THE QUESTION, IF THE AMOUNT OF MONEY TRYING TO BE RAISED WAS SPREAD OVER A LARGE NUMBER OF PEOPLE, LOWERING THE AMOUNT GIVEN BY ONE INDIVIDUAL, WOULD PEOPLE BE MORE WILLING TO GIVE?

THE REASON I AM ASKING IS I AM TRYING TO RAISE MONEY TO MOVE FROM FLORIDA BACK TO CALIFORNIA. YOU COULD SEE MORE ON MY HUSBANDS BLOG(http://gettinghometocali.blogspot.com/). I READ SOMEWHERE THAT THER ARE ORGANIZATIONS THE YOU COULD JOIN THAT USE THIS PHILOSAPHY. THEY ASK THERE MEMBERS TO PAY A FLAT MONTHLY FEE, IN WICH THE PROCEADS WOULD BE COMBINED INTO A COMMUNITY ACCOUNT. THIS ACCOUNT IS PUT INTO SOME KIND OF GARENTEED STOCKS OR BONDS WHERE IT COLLECTS INTEREST. ALL OF THE MONEY IS NOT FOR PROFIT. THE MEMBERS, WHEN IN NEED, WOULD SUBMITT A REQUEST FOR A GRANT FROM THE ORGANIZATION. THEY WOULD ONLY BE ELIGABLE ONCE A YEAR TO RECEIVE FUNDS. WHEN A REQUEST WOULD COME IN, THE BOARD MEMBERS WOULD GATHER AND DECIDE WHO, AND HOW MUCH MONEY WOULD BE GRANTED TO TH REQUESTIES.

SO FOR EXAMPLE

THERE ARE 1000 MEMBERS IN THE ORGANIZATION.
EACH MEMBER PAYS A MONTHLY FEE OF 50 DOLLARS
ANNUALLY 600 DOLLARS
$600 x 1000 MBRS. = $600,000+INTERST IN THE ACCOUNT

AS YOU CAN SEE THE OVERALL DOLLAR AMOUNT IS LARGE, BUT THE CONTRIBUTIONS FROM THE MEMBERS IS SMALL. IN THIS KIND OF ORGANIZATION, TO ME, EVERYBODY WINS. AT LEAST THIS  IS THE CONCLUSION I CAME UP WITH. I AM WONDERING IF I COULD USE SIMILER IDEALOGITY TO GET THE FUNDS TO MOVE. IF INDEED IT COULD WORK, I AM CONSIDERING STARTING A SIMILER ORGANIZAION ONLINE.

SO I PLACE THE QUESTION, TO GIVE OR NOT TO GIVE?, IN FRONT OF YOU TODAY(AUG.18 2008), IF YOU AGREE WITH THIS METHOD PLEASE SEE MY HUSBANDS BLOG(http://gettinghometocali.blogspot.com/) AND DONATE. ALSO IF YOU THINK THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO BE A PART OF A PROGRAM LIKE THIS LEAVE ME A MESSAGE. IF I GET ENOUPH RESPONSIS I WILL CONTACT ALL WHO ARE INTERESTED AND TOGETHER WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO SET SOMETHING UP. ALSO IF YOU DISAGREY, PLEASE LEAVE YOUR REASON WHY. PLEASE LEAVE A RESPONSE EITHER WAY.

First of all, I'm Ricardo from Austin, Texas. I have lived all of my life in this state. I'm orginally from Abilene, Texas but I've been living in Austin for more than 20 years. I enjoy life to the fullest and I try to do a lot of things. I'm never afaird of doing anything. One of the biggest things I enjoy doing is traveling. My recent adventure was going to the state of Colorado. Beautiful state. I would love to go back and keep exploring its beauty, and it's site it has to see.

The reason for my blog in Aidpage, is to help other with the knowledge that I have devopled from my life experiences.  I've gone up and down the latter and I've have had great credit and bad credit. I've have learned to deal with people, build a small at home business and coach people in being successful in their personal lives and business lives and learned to do a lot of research do make sure I make the right decision. 

I want to share that exeperience with others. Give them a different way to look at a problem to find a solution. Give people ideas, a direction and teach those who want to learn. This will help me in the long run because I'm offerring something of value and that is life experience. What it will also do for me is the more I can share, help. I will be rewarded three time more  with a better life. I myself, by sharing what I've learned. This will help me become a better person, develope more experience and help those who needed. 

In return life will give me all that I want by doing this.  

I'm looking for financial peace of mind or to grow more money and find different ways to get more money in my pocket. I'm looking of me to help other and have them achieve their goals. I looking to help all I can. But I guess I'm looking to get started first on what I need before I can help other. Or maybe it will work out where I do what I need to do at the same time help out.

Well, there are a lot of things that I want to do but first is first. I wouldn’t mind starting a foundation or grant or something that I can walk people through what I've learned. Help them and then go onto the next person. Lot's of time you know your problem but sometime you need that helping hand. Sometimes you need someone to point it out to you. I’ve learned that the hard way.

I guess I'm to give help, so help can come back to me. I willing to quite my job visit each relative and get him or her going and once I feel comfortable with where they are. I go to the next relative and so forth and so on.

But in order to do so, I want to make sure that I'm stable first. I keep reading the Aidpage and there is something in common that I’m finding. We all need some type of help but each of us have a different piece of the puzzle. By putting this community together, we should be able to fit those pieces together and get things going for all of us. In this country and in the lifetime, we have enough for each other to get and give. We just need to learn how to get it and where.